Bad Mom

Yes, I've had those moments where I have felt like a bad mom, and I am hopefully not the only way that has ever felt that way. There are moments where my patience is thin due to lack of sleep and then I feel terrible about not being more patient. There are moments that I want to be able to get things done around the house but I can't, because Micah is going through a stage where he wants to be held a lot (got to love separation anxiety). I keep wondering if I'm doing something wrong and that's why he's going through separation anxiety. And then I feel bad for being so concerned about cleaning and doing things around the house, when I should be cherishing each moment I've been given with Micah. There are moments I wonder if I'm feeding him enough or feeding him too much. Does he have the safest car seat? Are we reading and talking to him enough? And I'm sure there are and will be many more. But, I know this, I love that little boy and I'm so thankful that God has blessed us with our sweet Micah. And I know that the good times far out weigh the trying times and that parenthood is SO worth it. There will certainly be trying times in parenthood. There will certainly be times that I feel like I'm getting it wrong. But, my prayer is that I will seek God daily in the decisions I make, especially where Micah is concerned.I pray that when those moments arise that I think I'm getting it wrong, I will immediately stop and give those thoughts over to the Lord and that if I am doing something wrong, He will show me. I pray that I will cherish each smile, laugh, hug, kiss, and every other moment that I am given with Micah. I pray that I will not compare myself to other mothers and that I wouldn't compare Micah to other children. And I pray that Micah will grow up seeing the Word lived out daily and that he will know he is loved by us and the Lord.