Have you ever prayed for something so long that you start to think God isn't ever going to answer? Or that He doesn't care about your heart's desires? Oh, have I been there. Numerous times, unfortunately. But, each time He gently, or not so gently, reminds me that He hears.....but that doesn't mean He's going to answer the way I want Him to or in the amount of time I would like. But, He also has shown me time and time again, that His ways are better and that He has a plan for me....for good.
Over the past few years, I found myself in that place of praying for something fervently, but not getting an answer, or at least the answer I wanted. I kept pleading with Him knowing that He knows my heart on this matter. Recently, like in the past month, He has answered that prayer. It came when I least expected it and not in a way that I expected it to be answered. But, what I have learned through that is that time and time again, He has shown me He is faithful. He has shown me that He is good and that He hears and answers. He has shown me His love, even when I have shown my doubt. Ultimately, He has shown me that I have to GIVE UP CONTROL and TRUST HIM!
You see, I was praying fervently for something, but then trying in my own power to control the situation. I can look back over the past few years since praying for this specific request and see that He was answering it even then. I just couldn't see it then, because I was trying to deal with it in MY own strength instead of just sitting back and letting Him work in this area.
I would love to say that this is the last time I will find myself in a situation of trying to work in my own strength, but I'm a sinner and imperfect. I can only pray that next time I find myself in a situation like this, that I can pray about it and trust Him with it and completely lay it at His feet and let Him handle it. Boy, what a mess I can make of things when trying to do it on my own. But, how beautiful to watch HIM work and see what comes of situations when He is the One in control.
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Being the recovering control freak that I am, I too sometimes struggle with giving things to God. For some reason, I feel like I have to be in control for my perceived best outcome to come to fruition. I realize that's not Truth, and that my best is what He has to offer, but it can be so hard to pry the reigns from my tightly clenched fingers.
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